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Age: 20 years old Date of Birth: March1 1990 Horoscope Sign: Pisces rain_shine13@hotmail.com Tagboard
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Saturday, December 26, 2009 just got back from the stay-over. I enjoyed myself, but it made me reflect a lot. We went Timbre last night when i listened to songs, I couldn't control, but to think about a lot of things. what's more, with the influence of alcohol. I was feeling so............. [unexplainable!] I tried to recall or reflect what I've done in 2009. My thoughts were in a mess. I only can recall what happened recently, and things that happened long ago. I can't remember the happy moments, I can't remember the reasons for being sad. It's really a mess. In 5 more days, I am going to enter 2010, I will be 20 years old. I will be graduating. A new chapter of my life starts. No one will be there to take charge of my future because i've grown up. I feel so lost.... lost in the middle, where there is no one to give me a hand. What am I going to do? What am I supposed to do? How am I supposed to do it? All these have been going on in my mind for the past few days... Can I believe I can do it since everything is in my hands? At the same time, i have lost myself again. I've changed again. Someone used to tell me, It's good to change. Someone used to tell me, I must adapt to changes. In the end, I realised, I have been constantly changing to fit myself in the environment, to fit into the people. To be able to survive. I dont have a real identity, I live for other people. Thats my personality. That's my life. I guess, its time I really put down everything, sit and think what should I do? | |